i really suck at this blogging thing! 

some of you may be saying, “no you don’t silly head!” 

some of you may be saying, ” i hope you die asshole!” although i don’t know why you’d be saying that just because i suck at blogging…thats a bit harsh!

why do you have to be soooooo damn mean?

you’re always soooooo critical! im only one man!!!!

whoa! where the hell did i go? i think i may have passed out there for a second and when i woke up i turned into an 8th grade girl 

anyway…

im not very entertaining lately and for that i apologize. this past month or so has been very backwards for me. ive longed for a past that i tried to hold on to, but realistically i couldn’t. i have called it the “holiday blues,” but i have no idea if that is what was going on. sometimes i even scared myself with who i was becoming.

for a long time i was just going through the motions of life because i was comfortable. i didn’t want to admit that i was comfortable though because when you admit that you are comfortable and thats the only reason that you live the life that you live, you realize that you’re entire existence is a lie. that my readers is a tough pill to swallow!

when i looked at the past in a present setting…when the past stared at me straight in the eyes  i understood that the past was great, but it was no longer comfortable like it once was.

i guess the moral of the story is that when you dwell too much on the past, you miss out on the beauty of the present and the promise of the future!

im sorry that i haven’t been more entertaining, but this is a phase that i think that i have to go through.

until next time…